Today in the locker room at the gym- a lady decides to do yoga naked by the saunas. So gross. So inappropriate. And, to top it off, there was a yoga class going on at that very same time!!
Today at the park, a mother of twin girls comes with each girl having a tiny Chihuahua dog on a leash. These girls were around 6 or 7. Dragging the poor dogs, pulling them up to the high areas of the playground by their necks dangling from the leashes. Pushing them down the slide (still holding on to the leash from the top). Wanted to scream!!! Mother watching whole thing...doing nothing. There was no way she didn't hear my gasps. I was in shock....
Today told my mother how proud I was that I didn't acknowledge an old lover's birthday. I had to take the step to eliminate him from my life. Haven't felt better. Haven't regretted it for a second. Her response was "why are you so adimant about being in such denial?" What the F!!!!!!!!!! Whatever. Can't you just say "good job, proud of you" ??????????????????
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
The Randoms...
1. Going to the bank!! Hate it. So glad my Iphone now has an app for Chase:)
2. Getting gas. I am that person that waits until the last second. Hate going.........
3. Going to the store hungry-just bad all around
4. Cross eyed people-I never know where to look when I am talking to them
5. High pitched voices-so annoying. I try so hard not to (but I think at times I do)
6. Food. We need it to live, but why is it so bad for us at the same time!! I love it too much
7. People watching. Love it. Can do it for hours!
8. Watching kids shows with my neices and nephews or friends kids. I am a closet lover of these shows. (couldn't wait to find out who the new wizard was on Wizards of Waverly Place!)
9. Leaving the toilet seat up...really?? I find this so rude
10. Hypocrites-hate them and try my hardest not to be one!
11. I love to sleep---grandma is my second name
12. Going on the computer to look up something and hours later haven't made it there yet because you got sidetracked a million times!
13. Having to call an technician for computer, phone or internet problems....want to kill somebody at the end of it!
14. Music...especially in a Spin class-makes it or breaks it!!!
15. Not having your favorite coffee or creamer in the morning................................................................
16. I am addicted to my calorie counter on my heart rate monitor.
2. Getting gas. I am that person that waits until the last second. Hate going.........
3. Going to the store hungry-just bad all around
4. Cross eyed people-I never know where to look when I am talking to them
5. High pitched voices-so annoying. I try so hard not to (but I think at times I do)
6. Food. We need it to live, but why is it so bad for us at the same time!! I love it too much
7. People watching. Love it. Can do it for hours!
8. Watching kids shows with my neices and nephews or friends kids. I am a closet lover of these shows. (couldn't wait to find out who the new wizard was on Wizards of Waverly Place!)
9. Leaving the toilet seat up...really?? I find this so rude
10. Hypocrites-hate them and try my hardest not to be one!
11. I love to sleep---grandma is my second name
12. Going on the computer to look up something and hours later haven't made it there yet because you got sidetracked a million times!
13. Having to call an technician for computer, phone or internet problems....want to kill somebody at the end of it!
14. Music...especially in a Spin class-makes it or breaks it!!!
15. Not having your favorite coffee or creamer in the morning................................................................
16. I am addicted to my calorie counter on my heart rate monitor.
Monday, January 16, 2012
Take the But Out of It!
I have friends who are exhausting to be around sometimes. I hate to say it, but it is true. One woman is in her 50's. The other is in her 40's and a lesbian. Both of these woman talk non stop about their men or woman and how it is all the others fault that the relationship isn't working. Hmmmm...a book and movie were written and made called "he's just not into you". I want to give both of them that present. They just don't get it.
For example, my one friend told me the other day that she texted this guy she had a relationship with a couple of years ago (brief one). She has it stuck in her head they were a couple, but he got scared. The truth was he only wanted sex. Only was around for sex and then poof...gone. She tells herself and me that he was "scared because they got too close". Hmmm... did he ever call after that? No. She would text him, they would have sex and then nothing again until she made the move. Red flag?? Yes. She texted him the other day to tell him she was moving to another city and she deep down wanted him to say "no don't go, stay". They haven't talked before this for months!!! He of course didn't. His reply was "when you get settled in give me a call and we can break in your new house". She still didn't get it. I wanted to punch her. She said "but...he is scared". He isn't.
The other girl is obsessed with her ex girlfriend. Thats all she talks about. She blames the ex for being mentally unstable and not knowing if she is lesbian or straight. Tells me she is over her---next thing I know they have hooked up again and the cycle starts all over. Her sentences have a bunch of "buts" in them too.
Bottom line, if you have a "but in your sentence, you are making an excuse or justifying. Be strong. Move on. These are my friends and I am there for them to listen and support. Just gets exhausting to hear over and over!!!
For example, my one friend told me the other day that she texted this guy she had a relationship with a couple of years ago (brief one). She has it stuck in her head they were a couple, but he got scared. The truth was he only wanted sex. Only was around for sex and then poof...gone. She tells herself and me that he was "scared because they got too close". Hmmm... did he ever call after that? No. She would text him, they would have sex and then nothing again until she made the move. Red flag?? Yes. She texted him the other day to tell him she was moving to another city and she deep down wanted him to say "no don't go, stay". They haven't talked before this for months!!! He of course didn't. His reply was "when you get settled in give me a call and we can break in your new house". She still didn't get it. I wanted to punch her. She said "but...he is scared". He isn't.
The other girl is obsessed with her ex girlfriend. Thats all she talks about. She blames the ex for being mentally unstable and not knowing if she is lesbian or straight. Tells me she is over her---next thing I know they have hooked up again and the cycle starts all over. Her sentences have a bunch of "buts" in them too.
Bottom line, if you have a "but in your sentence, you are making an excuse or justifying. Be strong. Move on. These are my friends and I am there for them to listen and support. Just gets exhausting to hear over and over!!!
Do You Want Your Change?
So, by all means I don't think I am an expert at anything. Especially relationships. However, I have had 3 (yes only 3 in all my years) long term relationships. I have had nothing in between. Nothing. I go all out or not at all. Today's topic is about change. Can you change people that you are in a relationship with. The answer is NO. Plain and simple. You think you can. You hope you can. You wish you can. The bottom line is though people, that you can only change yourself. The other will stay the same if they are fine with themselves. So what I am trying to say here is if you feel like you are not getting anything, everything or something out of your relationship, you need to step back and see what it is that you are accepting as ok.
In my situations, I was the other woman for a long, long time. I told myself I didn't care. I did. I told myself I wasn't hurting anyone, he was. I was...myself. I told myself that the little I got from him was better than nothing. It wasn't. It took a long time, and a lot of tears, heartache and self discipline. I finally broke the pattern. The patterns with me were to wait and let him come to me. Wait until is was ok on his time. Fuck that shit!!! What about me? I kept quiet. I didn't tell anyone about our relationships. I was the good girl. I even put up with not having orgasms for years! How pathetic is that??!! Wasn't afterall just about sex? I told myself it wasn't for me, but you better believe your ass it was only that for these guys.
Bottom line. The change comes from you and you only. Do it! It is powerful!
In my situations, I was the other woman for a long, long time. I told myself I didn't care. I did. I told myself I wasn't hurting anyone, he was. I was...myself. I told myself that the little I got from him was better than nothing. It wasn't. It took a long time, and a lot of tears, heartache and self discipline. I finally broke the pattern. The patterns with me were to wait and let him come to me. Wait until is was ok on his time. Fuck that shit!!! What about me? I kept quiet. I didn't tell anyone about our relationships. I was the good girl. I even put up with not having orgasms for years! How pathetic is that??!! Wasn't afterall just about sex? I told myself it wasn't for me, but you better believe your ass it was only that for these guys.
Bottom line. The change comes from you and you only. Do it! It is powerful!
Sunday, January 15, 2012
....j u s t c a n ' t s t o p watching
I have a problem. Lifetime and Hallmark movies. I can't stop watching them. I find most to have horrible acting and pretty cheesie (Hallmark mostly) story lines. But at the same time I can't stop watching them! I even set my DVR to record. I have a problem.
Puttin the paint where it ain't
So when I returned from training for my new job, my mother was already drinking. It wasn't 3:00 and I thought and thought of why she steered away from the "norm". I could only figure out that she thought I was going to be gone longer. She also did this the other day when I went to visit a friend in the hospital. I came back quick because my friend was heavily medicated and needed rest.
ok..so I think I will tell you a quick story of what happened to me at Whole Foods the other day. I went to the seafood counter to purchase Ahi tuna and some shrimp. I just recently learned how to make sushi and am now obsessed with perfecting it. So, as I approached the counter the young fellow (like 22/23) said "heh, what's up?" instead of "hello, how can I help you today?". I was instantly shocked. I guess I shouldn't be at my age, but occasionally I am. It only escalated from there. I replied with "fine, how are you?" He said "killer, just puttin the paint where it ain't". Again-shock. What the hell does that even mean??? He asked what I needed and I told him the ahi and the shrimp. He answered "awesome". Then asked if I was ready for my weekend of "partying". Who the heck says this to a customer? Him I guess. I said "oh, I don't party, just making sushi". He then asked if I knew how. I said I just learned and his reply was "oh then you are 'rookie MVP' ". I just smiled...too shocked to even answer at this point. The whole time, I was thinking I was in Whole Foods, not the average joe smo store. Hmmmmm..... left me baffled.
Now, by now means am I a prude. But I do believe in proper customer service and proper etiquette. The sad thing is this guy thought he was cool and probably flirting. Sad. Just sad.
Until later,
L
ok..so I think I will tell you a quick story of what happened to me at Whole Foods the other day. I went to the seafood counter to purchase Ahi tuna and some shrimp. I just recently learned how to make sushi and am now obsessed with perfecting it. So, as I approached the counter the young fellow (like 22/23) said "heh, what's up?" instead of "hello, how can I help you today?". I was instantly shocked. I guess I shouldn't be at my age, but occasionally I am. It only escalated from there. I replied with "fine, how are you?" He said "killer, just puttin the paint where it ain't". Again-shock. What the hell does that even mean??? He asked what I needed and I told him the ahi and the shrimp. He answered "awesome". Then asked if I was ready for my weekend of "partying". Who the heck says this to a customer? Him I guess. I said "oh, I don't party, just making sushi". He then asked if I knew how. I said I just learned and his reply was "oh then you are 'rookie MVP' ". I just smiled...too shocked to even answer at this point. The whole time, I was thinking I was in Whole Foods, not the average joe smo store. Hmmmmm..... left me baffled.
Now, by now means am I a prude. But I do believe in proper customer service and proper etiquette. The sad thing is this guy thought he was cool and probably flirting. Sad. Just sad.
Until later,
L
First Post...trial run...here we go...
So here I am, starting a blog. Never thought I would. But then again, never say "never"-right? I am a woman in her 40's who has never been married, doesn't have children and recently had to come back to live with an extremely alcoholic mother. I appreciate what she is doing for me, but the latter is very hard. I do lose my patience immediatley after she takes her first drink. Usually she is on a schedule and this is at 3:00, but somedays (and I can't figure out why) she starts earlier. Wine (cheap, gallon wine) is her choice. ok...so just now as I am busy in my office area writing this (its 10:50 am), she came to tell me the paper wasn't delivered and I needed to call. What's wrong with her fingers???? Oh well.
So, why did I want to write this blog? I feel like so much happens in a day that is funny, sad, maddening, etc and I want to share. People seem to be attra (sorry another interuption-while I was calling the paper to say it wasn't delivered, my 2 little dogs got out. I assumed (never will do that again) that she would watch them. Well 1 came back, but the other wouldn't come when called. I am in my robe, she is dressed. She is asking the other dog where the little one is...REAllY? I go and yell for the dog, but nothing. So I grab my keys because I am not walking around the neighborhood in my robe. I get in the car, and wow...there she is 3 houses down. Really, my mother couldn't have walked out to see this??? Oh well again.
So back to where I was. People seem to be attracted to me for my advice, help, company. I am not sure, but this has always been the case for me. I am a helper. I help. Sometimes this takes over my well being. I am working on this. Believe me. I made a huge mistake trying to "help" someone else that now I live with my mother. I may talk about this someday, but today is not the day.
After I decided to do this blog, I started jotting down ideas on my Iphone "notes" section. It quickly filled up 2-3 pages. That was just in about 10 minutes. I knew I wanted to vent, talk, share, but didn't think it would be so easy.
So I will leave this for now because I have to get dressed to go train for a new job I am starting.
Talk soon.
L
So, why did I want to write this blog? I feel like so much happens in a day that is funny, sad, maddening, etc and I want to share. People seem to be attra (sorry another interuption-while I was calling the paper to say it wasn't delivered, my 2 little dogs got out. I assumed (never will do that again) that she would watch them. Well 1 came back, but the other wouldn't come when called. I am in my robe, she is dressed. She is asking the other dog where the little one is...REAllY? I go and yell for the dog, but nothing. So I grab my keys because I am not walking around the neighborhood in my robe. I get in the car, and wow...there she is 3 houses down. Really, my mother couldn't have walked out to see this??? Oh well again.
So back to where I was. People seem to be attracted to me for my advice, help, company. I am not sure, but this has always been the case for me. I am a helper. I help. Sometimes this takes over my well being. I am working on this. Believe me. I made a huge mistake trying to "help" someone else that now I live with my mother. I may talk about this someday, but today is not the day.
After I decided to do this blog, I started jotting down ideas on my Iphone "notes" section. It quickly filled up 2-3 pages. That was just in about 10 minutes. I knew I wanted to vent, talk, share, but didn't think it would be so easy.
So I will leave this for now because I have to get dressed to go train for a new job I am starting.
Talk soon.
L
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